THEIR VOICES NEVER HEARD

We pause.  The plaintiff sounds of taps

reverberate from hamlet to city center.

Misty eyes.

Somber words from podiums spoke

remembering those who laid down their lives

to preserve our freedom.

Honor guards march with precision. Jaws squared,

Flags unfurled. Polished shoes glistening.

Barbeque grills and Bud six packs wait in the wings.

Where, where are the bodies of the dead unborn?

They have no headstones. No memorials, No national

day of remembrance.

Their voices – never heard.

Their talents never used. Their service to others a blank slate.

The lifelong pain of could have been mothers is

Intentionally hidden from public view. A topic unworthy of public discourse.

A fetus is not a child..say that three times while looking in the mirror

and  without choking.

What if ..yes what if, the mothers of our nation’s bravest who

are memorialized  had decided..yes what if they had chosen

abortion over life.  Who, yes who, would fight for our freedoms?

Have an answer? Tell it to God.

THE CRUCIFIX FROM AUSTRIA –LEST WE FORGET

The onyx crucifix hung nailed to fading, pale green walls

 Above the Formica dining room chairs —  near the aging refrigerator.

 Years pass.  Children are born: grow tall and leave home.

The brick duplex sags beneath the weight of time in the steel town ghetto.

The crucifix remains.

 

Family dinners, pinochle games,  political discussions, high school football scores

 All take  place as the gray cross silently shows its pain.

Silence??  No one discusses the history of  the

old , almost   mystical icon which was hidden inside a

pillow case when the part Catholic – part Jewish family

Fled the Nazis  as the killers overwhelmed the Danube valley:

Penniless, weak, frightened, they stumbled into the US at Ellis Island.

 

Names changed to appear American, they labored in the steel

mills and breweries: cleaned houses: sewed the clothing of rich matrons.

Long days, short weekends: they fought to survive the depression:

Observed government agents checking their mail – their choice of

of newspapers-their phone calls to ensure they were not German agents:

 

Decades pass, the family matriarch passes into the hands of our Lord.

Grown  children scramble for the jewelry, furniture,

Assets in bank accounts.

The crucifix  remains alone : always watchful: revered

Yet ignored:

Shunted  aside on to a pile of “ we don’t want this”– you can have it.

 

History ignored.  Family values disregarded.. then….

Family lore talks about a tiny church on the other side of  the

Town:  Steel mills and woolen mills closed: This once prosperous

church now sits surrounded by fading row houses, empty lots.

 Once a German- Slovak enclave, the parish is in transition.

 

 

A welcoming Latino priest –dedicated to saving the history of the parish.

Says hi to the Anglo tourists in search of their roots.

What windows he queries.. oh yes, those windows ..no one can explain them.

Family legend says two lead windows were donated  by one of the family elders:

 One for his first wife – then for his second after the death of the first.

Yes, we find the family European name on the windows… and a replication

of the crucifix … wow!

The crucifix has indeed been part of the family for decades.. 

Coincidence?  A part of family devotion that could have been lost forever.

 

The crucifix had been posited a decade since past

as a semi-decoration on the side wall of a business office.

More of an after thought decoration than an object of veneration.

 

Recently blessed, and understood:

A proud reminder of faith and family courage.

 A gift from the Lord that has traveled many miles: Survived through generations.

A story that deserves to be retold to the next generation… not left as “stuff”.

 

An obligatory message to all of us to pass along our  stories of family relics, pictures, and

yes muses to the next generation.  Myths which will disappear when we pass on.

Lest we forget… take the time: share your stories and keepsakes with those coming behind

you..  Your traditions deserve to be preserved and repeated.

 

 

“ BROTHERS AND SISTERS, HEAR MY PRAYER

The great religions of the world have their special holiday seasons.
Whether it be Lent, or Ramadan or Passover.
All require commitment, sacrifice, and prayer.

A common query of our family “ What did you give up for lent?
Is it chocolate, or booze, or television?

Muslims give up food from sunrise to sunset during Ramadan
Truly a sacrifice in the energy depleting sacrifice heat of the desert.

And so, we look inward during this period leading up to the torture
Mockery, and death of Jesus on the cross.
Ever put a crown of thorns on your head – painful to say the least
Let alone nails in your hands, hanging from a tree for hours.
So our sacrifice is indeed minimal.

Sunday services are imbued with somberness. Dark, blood red is the prevalent color.

And so, we begin.

The cantor sings: “ Brothers and sisters hear my prayer, for I have sinned”
Followed by many verses of this same pleading, melodious chant.
Look around. The 80 ish lady standing next, adorned with jewelry and coiffure with elegance
rises alone, by herself. Face crisscrossed with deep dark lines, back straight
Tears running down her proud cheeks: “ Brothers and sisters hear my prayer, for I have sinned.
One wonders, what malfeasance could be so great that her heart is torn?

Garish, frightening tattoos decorate the neck of the young father .
Leather jacket, dirty jeans, well worn sneakers
Holding his daughter tightly, showing he will protect her against all evil.
Straight as a marine on guard, he faces the altar
Grim, determined, he sings “ Brothers and sisters hear my prayer, for I have sinned”.
What does his appearance tell us about his past and present.
Here he is standing before the crucifix
Let’s hope he gets the benefits of forgiveness.

Amazing what happens to a group of people praying for forgiveness.
Eyes front, no one glances to see the face of the person next to them
A very focused congregation, desiring their own space, their own private thoughts.

Silence. A all quietly settle into the benches.
Even the small children seem to be entranced by the body love of their parents.

The priest, a 50ish something Irish guy, large enough to have played for the Packers is
A loud laughing, hand slapping, love everyone guy. He always has a smile and a kind word.
Seemingly encircled by his blood red stole he strides to the front of the altar.
Strange, this is not the usual format of the service. The congregants shuffle in their seats.
Steal a questioning sideways glance at their pew mate.
After all, in each Catholic Church throughout the world the format is the same.
THIS IS NOT THE FORMAT!!

Loud, booming, trembling the priest proclaims: “ Brothers and sisters hear my prayer, for I have sinned”.
Laying prostrate on the altar, he slowly, deliberately, in obvious pain, removes the sacred clerical
vestmants.
Again he faces his flock, those who have trusted him for 5 years: Louder and with anguish he proclaims:
“ Brothers and sisters hear my prayer, for I have sinned”.

He not so subtly nods towards the back of church.
Lovingly he holds his bible close to his heart
Eyes front, not looking at anyone, his shame apparent to all.
He begins the slow walk down the aisle.
Indeed a walk of public shame, A walk he chose to make.
“Oh my God “yells the fainting woman as she collapses..
“ No father” say it isn’t so cries a young mother.
“You dirty bastard “screams a man of 50, a former altar boy.
The walk reaches the end of the church,
An embarrassed, shy state trooper, also a parishioner, escorts the sinner to the waiting car.

It is over, another chapter in a seemingly endless saga.
The people have been sacrificed. Faith is again questioned. Shock and awe .
In the words of an old hymn. Where were you when they hung him on the cross?

A time for reflection and sacrifice

A FORGOTTEN CONCENTRATION CAMP – MAJDANEK

Like many country roads outside of Lublin, Poland there are no markers.
Miles of sun glistened farmland intersected by two lane farm roads.
Range roving chickens and cattle nonchalantly cross the roads.
Barely surviving farmers tend the fields, somehow supporting their families.

One can imagine children running and playing in this calm, provincial environment.
Smocks, caps, and shoes to protect them from the northern European sod.
Shoes for running, and playing, and enjoying the spirits of their youth.

Fifty years after World War ll there is a sense of eery quiet here.
As there are in many nearly forgotten corners of this proud nation.

One can easilyfollow the guide books to Aushwitz, BIerekenbau, Czestekova,
Buses of patriots, generations of those whose families perished,
The Catholic religious to see the miracle of the Black Madonna in the main church at Czestekova:
All find their way to these moving sites.

Approaching the unmarked cross roads, there are no signs to Lublin or other towns.
There are no buses: few venture here.
The road leads to MAJDANEK. .
According to the definitive work “Majdanek” by Edward Gwyn and Zofia Murkawsk-Gryn ,
This death camp is the last resting place for 360,000, Mainly Jews.

Yes, there is a small building that houses pamphlet stalls and a tiny movie theatre seating a few dozen.
The horrors of the film are such that only those over 12 years of age are permitted.
This is to prevent nightmares ( Canadians in our group disregarded this warning – their children had
nightmares for months). Shots of mass killings, starving inmates, bulldozers plowing
people into mass graves. Difficult and gut wrenching to watch.

Several prisoner barracks remain: Wooden in construction.
Barren, a temporary shelter before prisoners were cremated.

Remember the farm children we spoke about earlier?
The innocence of youth , the flowering of the next generation?
Recall the smell of new leather? Pungent, singular, unique.
Walk into this hell hole of a barracks and like Auswitz, there are
Thousands, yes I said thousands of shoes taken from the dead.
Close your eyes and picture thousands of shoes from infants, small children.
Helpless, dragged to the gas chambers, shot: starved, then bulldozed into mass graves.

The Grim Reaper’s incredible wrath.

Can you imagine the smell,, the stench of infant shoes … 70 years after the end of the war?
Imagine the pleading eyes of 2-3-4 children on their way to die.
The screams for their mothers! The panic of gloating death in the face of German killers?

At Aushwitz, the piles of shoes, luggage, handbags are sobering, tear wrenching.
Visitors are protected from the smell of death by glass partitions.
Not at Majdanek … death is raw, personal, tearing at your heart.
Every pair of empty shoes belonged to someone. Someone listed in a German
Transport Roll and/or camp document.

Consider the cruel power of madman dictators.
Think about those who kill the unborn in the guise of “choice”.

This horror in Poland is so great that roads are unmarked.
A legacy that a nation struggles to forget!
And you think the holocaust happened only in Dachau, Aushwitz and Bierkenbau ??
As a Catholic gentile, I can truly agree with my Jewish brethren -“ Never Again”.

Shoes of dead Jewish prisoners at Majdanek